i've started liking sappy songs again...while i was asexual, i only liked alternative/rock. ah well.

michelle and i were talking the other day about chick flicks and we discussed whom we would end up with if our lives were chick flicks...interesting how real life is completely different. i mean, from a very objective point of view and drawing from my chick-flick-viewing experience, i can make a few guesses as to how things should have turned out with different people if my life were a chick flick, and wow, they're just completely unrealistic. the basic chick flick plot falls along these lines: girl and guy like each other (even if they don't know it yet), some obstacle or denial gets in the way, third/fourth/fifth parties get involved making the situation more complicated (drama is all-important), then comes a moment of revelation and the two end up happily-ever-after together while the supporting characters end up with each other (if they're sympathetic characters) or miserable and alone (if they're scheming/deceitful/mean). the end (in which we automatically assume matrimony and many babies are involved). now working from this premise, any guy that circumstance/timing/coincidence takes away from you will be restored because some cosmic love-god-power controls all romances so that true love reigns. hm. excuse me if i'm a bit skeptical. i see plenty of wonderful, healthy relationships out there, but i doubt everything just fell into perfect place because two people were just "meant to be." sure, you could say things haven't worked out for me yet because i wasn't "meant to be" with any previous people, but the older i get, the more i think that this love business mainly involves a lot of work, strategizing, compromising, and luck. and not much meant-to-be-ness.

and i don't think that love at first sight exists. that's ridiculous to me...how can you feel something so deep for someone only by seeing them once? i'd call "love at first sight" attraction/lust/infatuation and self-delusion that pans out into a good relationship. right now, i see love as a connection and friendship that deepens through time, association, and trust--a thread connecting two people that strengthens and evolves as time passes, the amount of time being variable i suppose. heck, maybe love doesn't even exist. some psychologist once said that eventually you get over that hormonal sparkly attraction stage after around three years, and afterward the relationship lasts only if the two make up their minds to be together. but what do i know? my heart twists and i melt when i see some poignant, cliched scene on the movie screen anyway. damned media. =P although in defense of my rational mind, i do have a limit to the amount of sappiness i can digest--i need a degree of realism in my chick flicks. ooh, that reminds me, love jones is a great romance, one of the most realistic i can recall. when harry met sally is still a classic...but i have to admit my favorite purely sappy movie is still while you were sleeping. i'm not even sure why...it's just cute.

whoa, where did this blog come from anyway? must be because everyone is bringing up the topic of relationships and junk because valentine's day is near. as for my opinion on that, suffice to say that i find it completely commercialized and unnecessary--single people feel miserable about themselves and involved people feel forced into performing superhuman "romantic" feats. it's merely another day...the origins of vday are all legend and most likely embellished. and if you cared about your partner enough, you would be showing that you love him/her every other day anyway. ah well. it's not that i'm bitter or whatever, i just don't agree with the current principles behind valentine's day now--if you want to give a card to someone special, make one yourself instead of buying a ready-made one that adds to the commercialism. or something. i'll be making and selling balloon bouquets and candy all next week as a fundraiser for kdphi--yep, capitalizing on valentine's day. it'll be nice to make people happy by giving them these balloons, but yeah, you could give your honey balloons any other day too. valentine's day is so arbitrary. i don't agree with it. if i were in a relationship, the most i'd do would be to write a card and have dinner together anywhere. i wouldn't be expecting too much either--no need to stress just because it's february 14th.

hm. even though i have issues with valentine's day, i really am still a sap and idealist at heart. i blame the media. but seriously, being sappy/idealistic and not liking valentine's day are not mutually exclusive. think about it--because i am idealistic, i have issues with valentine's day (explained above). makes sense. when it comes to relationships though, i find it so hard to have one simple single stance i can stick to...my rational, reasonable side is always clashing with my hopeless romantic. excuse my inconsistencies and tangential ramblings tonight...i haven't figured out my head yet either. anyway, time for me to think about more important things--like my bio lab pset, protocol, and write-up. cheerio!