dangit, i'm looking at delias.com. this is bad. i know the crazy amount of money i spent on christmas gifts this year...bad! i think i got a bit carried away this season =X i think if i had more time for shopping, i would have been able to budget better... but yeah. i hope everyone likes their gifts =\ i finally finished everything...i hope again. =) went to toys r us and barnes tonight to get brandon his present. yeung and i picked our way through the devastation at toys r us to get brandon a nerf dart gun thingie...but then i felt like i had to balance the toy with some books..."a light in the attic" by shel silverstein and "sideway stories from wayside school" =D remember those?? i feel it necessary to try to get brandon to love reading...after all, that's where i got my vocabulary. i read too much when i was little. actually, can you really read too much? reading's good, right? well, i guess you can read too much...sometimes i would get ah...reprimanded for reading instead of paying attention to the teacher in elementary school. yeah, i'm a nerd. but i haven't been able to read for pleasure in so long...it's rather sad.

anyway, yeung and i got some pearl milk tea too. i got mine hot...yum =) i sorta felt bad that yeung was coming along with me pretty pointlessly...he was done with shopping. but it was nice having our random conversation... and he got pearl milk tea! that has to be good, right? ;-) we got pretty nostalgic about our childhoods too...*sigh* he-man and being excited about christmas...

mike and i had a nice conversation later when i dropped off his gift too...it's sad how we're no longer as excited about christmas anymore. i remember waking up (and waking everybody else up) at some insanely early hour to open gifts. things just aren't the same anymore...i love my family, but i think christmas morning will forever be lacking now because we'll always seem incomplete now. i miss my dad. understatement. uh-oh, getting down now. plus i have to work tomorrow night...on christmas eve. i'm not christian, but christmas eve is family time...and i'm going to miss out on some of our annual christmas eve dinner with all the relatives. =\ not enjoying christmas as much anymore makes me feel jaded and old.

some things you're better off not thinking about. ignorance is bliss and all that jazz...too true. but dealing and living with the truth makes you stronger. i'd like my truths in little increments if possible though.