haven't been here in a while, huh? well, i'm finally home, and it feels nice =) actually, i'm feeling a bit guilty because i haven't been able to spend much time with my family...friday night after i dropped off all my crap, i had to get to installs in millbrae. ooh, i saw pearlyn there though =) funny how things work out. so while i was heading back, i realized that i had forgotten all my contact stuff at school. oy. i went to pick that up on the way home and had a nice chat with deb on the phone the whole way =D so cute! finally got home around 11:30 or 12:00...aiya. the next day, deb, cher, and i went to stoneridge in the afternoon for some "christmas shopping"...hahaha. yeah, that really turned out well. i ended up buying myself two new shirts. oh! but i saw hubert! he's such a cutie...remembered my name after i only talked to him like three times at school =)

then it was off to davis for dinner and pearl milk tea with jo, along with a lot of useless primping. haha...we're such girls. eventually we picked up alex and headed over to dylan's bday party. i haven't talked to alex in ages =) you call me! party was normal...just chillin, talking to people, cliques here and there. tim was spinning for a while though =) omg, i will not be forgetting gay chicken in the near future...the things you guys do...

back at jo's place, the girls and i had some pre-sleep bonding while staring unfocused at each other's faces since we didn't have our contacts on. finally slept at 6:30 =X we woke up pretty late, and i knew my mom was going to kill me for getting home incredibly late, so i called up red lobster to cut her off at the pass and tell her that i had a job again this break. ugh. but jo, deb, cher, anthony, alex, and i had a big ol' lunch/dinner at pete's bar and grill...man, that pizza was huge. and the waiter did not look like howard, anthony =P

you know, i often wonder how people perceive me. i was talking to jo about this last night, and we know that we all sort of shift the way we act depending on whom we're with. if you don't believe you do, i think you should look a little closer. it's just automatic. and i wonder so much about which is the real me...but i guess i'm all of them. and i know there are some core characteristics of mine that are there in every situation--not that i never change. because i see my changes very clearly too. i regret certain failures to act or speak on my part long ago...but i'm not like that anymore. i am perfectly comfortable with speaking my mind when i need to now. when i speak, i mean what i say. there's no use in lying because things come back to haunt you and you have that much more to remember and that many more lies to keep track of. i just wish everyone would grow up in some ways.