i want to cook something and have it come out delicious. i want to create something great--on any scale. maybe a really good biscuit or a sketch or smoothie or painting or piece of writing. unfortunately all those great things require time and a lot of work...no shortcuts to greatness. poo.

i also really love my family. maybe it took me over a year in college to realize this, but at least i know now. my relationship with them has changed so much over these past couple of years. i look back just a little into the past and think, "my god, how was i so selfish? why couldn't i just check that temper?" i'm still not the perfect daughter and sister, but i feel like i've made some progress. i understand a lot more these days about my mother and what she goes through. and it makes me sad sometimes. i need to constantly remember her burden and try to relieve it, no matter how annoying and repetitive her nagging can get =P i'd probably deal so much worse in her shoes...so i'm going to make a goal for myself this winter break: i am going to be the perfect daughter--or as close as humanly possible. maybe having it written out will actually give me more resolve...because i pretty much have the same goal every time i go home.