my, it's early/late. it's always so annoying how it could be either depending on your perspective. makes things so ambiguous. i'm not in a pro-ambiguity mood right now...must be all the studying so far. i've decided to take a break from chem for a couple minutes to blog because i need to give my brain a little time to absorb the knowledge i've tried to soak it in. then i'm going to dump it in the pool again and pray that there was some space left. alas, my brain can only retain so much from one night's of studying. i don't even know what i'm writing anymore...nothing seems to make much sense =P i really should stop this cramming habit. i'll never learn anything in the long-term this way. my head's all a-jumble and my thoughts are cloudy-gray. i think this indicates i either need caffeine or sleep. i'm not really big on caffeine actually, so i'll just have to suffer. it's okay, i'll have the whole afternoon tomorrow to make up for my lack of sleep tonight since david won't be able to drive me home until friday afternoon. i just might be able to make it home at a decent time if his boss isn't around...that lazy cousin of mine will cut out as soon as possible ;-)

i'm so excited about going home...it'll be absolutely delicious =) family and friends and no schoolwork looming overhead. although i still have all my christmas shopping to do, besides the possibility of working part-time while i'm on break. poo. i feel sort of bad that i can't go home tomorrow/today (thursday) since i already have plans to go out friday night and saturday night. i want to spend time with my family =\ i think i owe brandon another movie =) i'm in a very emoticon mood right now...probably because i don't want to use too much of my brain and these smileys are sufficient for getting my emotions across =)

ooh, i took a nap this afternoon for an hour or two and actually remembered my dream because it was so amusing. i woke up giggling, but realized that bobbi was in and i'd seem odd just giggling in bed for no reason, so i tried to stifle it...but it came out sounding like a whine of pain instead. sorry bobbi, you have a really odd roommate =)

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this is my december
these are my snow-covered dreams
this is me pretending
this is all I need