fucking bureacracy. this is why i am not going to be a politician. diiiiieeeeee!

just let me be premed...that's all i want now. i want to lock myself in a room somewhere and study for hours on end except for volunteering and things that will get me into med school. well, i want to do kdphi stuff still, but that's it. i want time to be nerdy and hardcore premed.

my world seems too claustrophobic these days. it's getting difficult to breathe. i want to escape--but i can't. responsibilities and shit. except i'm doing such a horrible job with them right now anyway...*sigh* suck. i miss being bright and happy and relatively optimistic. this isn't even sophomore slump...more like sophomore death, and ultimately i brought it all upon myself. it's time to make myself pay i guess.

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against my will i stand beside my own reflection
it’s haunting how i can't seem
to find myself again
my walls are closing in