pleasure is just relief. some of the best feelings in the world--like that post-sneeze feeling or eating or peeing after holding it in for a long time or satisfying a craving or sex--come from feelings of relief. so i realized i won't get to be truly happy ever. there's always going to be something hanging over my head so i will never be relieved from stress or my responsibilities...after i finish this midterm, i've still got club junk to deal with, meetings to attend, more labs to do, another midterm to study for, yaddayadda. even spring break...i'll have to worry about which classes to take and what to do with myself and think about the future. after college is still med school (i hope) and then it's slowly off to the working world. never ends. sort of depressing, but i guess it's better to just accept that now. and look forward to sneezing.