ambivalence x 2. first, i can't decide whether i should feel horrible for making you feel this way and second, i can't decide whether i should feel horrible for not being able to decide in the first place. i never knew i could still retain this old bitterness. i guess i'll eventually apologize more sincerely but right now i just don't care enough. i have enough shit to deal with and i want to tell you to just tough it and stop moping. if you don't do anything active to get over it, how the hell are you ever going to get anywhere besides your room or the "sausage factory" that is your life? yeah, i'm feeling brash and selfish today. i'm tired of being sympathetic all the time. you got over me quickly enough--use that same freaking method to get over her. oh wait, i never meant that much anyway.