i'm going to be so efficient this quarter! i have to, otherwise i'm going to DIE. and i'm not even exaggerating much when i say that. well, maybe i'll get an ulcer instead of dying. i've decided to just take 19 units--no need to be too masochistic. i'm sad though; that lecture series sounded so interesting!

i went to my first sapolsky lecture today. i'm so excited about that class! i'm such a dork! haha...but i'm not the only one. "it looks like a rock concert," said someone next to me as we entered. so true. it filled up the biggest lecture hall on campus and there were still people sitting on the stairs and in the aisles. a bunch will probably drop it or not show since lectures are online anyway *shrug*

being human is so inconvenient sometimes--all these random emotions that can stress you out and make your body react in the same manner as a "zebra being chased by a lion" as sapolsky likes to analogize. do you ever get these little moods of loneliness? just walking to class or the dining hall or something...and imagine if you really didn't have any friends or family. true loneliness would be unbearable. when people talk about being the last man/woman on earth and not having sex with someone they find extremely annoying even for procreation, i wonder if that would really be true. what else would be the point of living then? you might say you wouldn't reproduce with such-and-such now because in comparison to everyone else, he/she is a huge loser, but what happens once you can no longer make any comparisons? to be the very last person on earth left only with your thoughts would be torture. what would be the point of living? i don't think i could do it.

okay, i need to stop rambling and be efficient now. *click* efficiency on.