i think my blog's beginning to feel neglected. i'm such a capricious mistress. uh...yeah.

so i had a wonderful weekend in fremont. funny how my life used to be at home, and now it feels as if i go home to run away from life. it was such a nice little escape though. i saw david, steven, and my ho, deb. had a lot of fun (*infected tongue piercing voice* "mom is watching us from heaven") besides spending a lot of lovely family time. =) wesley, leia, and lucas are so CUTE! got another trim. had some of the sweet squooshy pearls and special chicken from tapioca express. went to watch spiderman too. pretty good movie.

ho-hum. back on campus. yet another midterm coming up. i know jack about plants.

you know what would improve the world in some way? if every parent taught their kids how to correctly go to the bathroom. it would make life so much nicer. sometimes i wonder if people forget how to flush toilets or aim or put the toilet paper in the toilet.

goodness, you know you're an instant messenger addict when you type out the word "aim" and go back and read it as "A.I.M." i need help.

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oh these little protections, how they fail to serve me
one forgotten phone call and i'm deflated
oh these little defenses, how they fail to comfort me
your hand pulling away and i'm devastated

when will you stop leaving, baby?
when will i stop deserting, baby?
when will i start staying with myself?

oh these little projections, how they keep springing from me
i jump my ship as i take it personally
oh these little rejections, how they disappear quickly
the moment i decide not to abandon me