mood's gone steadily downhill since the weekend. the whole will-be-screwed thing caught up with me. i'm a grumpy shmuck today =( sorry to bea who has to deal with me. there's just so much work to catch up on and i guess i'm not up to the challenge. giving up makes everything disappointing.

oh, and the only time they have decent food for dinner at the dining hall, i have to just grab a little and run to do work. typical. what a dark, dark time when food no longer has the opportunity to cheer me up.

i have a huge urge to crawl into a little pocket of warm, dusky timelessness and recuperate--just exist. if only that were possible...

"blarg ineffectuality"