i think i'm getting back into my efficient kickass mode. i love it when you look back on your day and think, "wow, i did all that?" accomplishment. nice.

on the other hand, i don't want to say this will last for the whole quarter either. i'm always too scared to hope, too afraid to be completely optimistic. i already know this quarter is going to be crazy. i only hope i'm up for it--that i have the ability to handle all my responsibilities and come out on top (with good grades, please!). i want to actually succeed for once. it feels as if forever has gone by since the last time i've been truly proud of myself.

it finally struck me earlier tonight that rush is going to happen in a matter of days. what if i've forgotten something important? what if no one comes out to rush? what if i screw everything up? why did i want to be rush chair again? i'm scared! hold me!