have you ever looked back upon a person's words and realized how amazing they were? stepping outside that moment and observing from afar sometimes allows you to appreciate so much more.

i wish i knew all the right things to say too. i hope i don't fuck things up. i want to let down my guard--it's tired. this waltz skillfully spins me around, but i cannot allow myself to relax and enjoy being dizzy until i know a counterbalance exists.

counter me. balance me. be my equal.

remember "possession" from sarah mclachlan? i heard it on the radio today. there's always been something about that song for me... but i won't be possessed unless i possess too.

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"Possession" ~Sarah McLachlan

listen as the wind blows
from across the great divide
voices trapped in yearning
memories trapped in time
the night is my companion
and solitude my guide
would i spend forever here
and not be satisfied?

and i would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
i'll take your breath away
and after, i'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes, dear

through this world i've stumbled
so many times betrayed
trying to find an honest word
to find the truth enslaved
oh, you speak to me in riddles
and you speak to me in rhymes
my body aches to breathe your breath
your words keep me alive

and i would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
i'll take your breath away
and after, i'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes, dear

into this night i wander
it's morning that i dread
another day of knowing of
the path i fear to tread
oh, into the sea of waking dreams
i follow without pride
nothing stands between us here
and i won't be denied

and i would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
i'll take your breath away
and after, i'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes, dear...