why can't everything be sparkles and butterflies forever? god, that sounds girly, but some people might know to what i'm referring. it's the nicest stage i've experienced--yet what do i know if i've never moved beyond? will i ever find a reason to break out of my cycle?

i wish i didn't have monthly hormonal imbalances--they muddle the brain. and to any guys reading this, i don't want to hear bullshit about girls with pms being bitches. you don't know what you're talking about, so shove it. the cycle just affects you physically and emotionally. personally, pms usually makes me sad.

my feelings would like an anchor.

::by the way, i'm not pms-ing.

why does brian mcknight's "anytime" make me think of your face looking into mine? you unnerve me.

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i have climbed the highest mountain
i have run through the fields
only to be with you
only to be with you

i have run, i have crawled
i have scaled these city walls
these city walls
only to be with you

but i still haven't found what i'm looking for
but i still haven't found what i'm looking for

i have kissed honey lips
felt the healing in her fingertips
it burned like fire
this burning desire
i have spoke with the tongue of angels
i have held the hand of a devil
it was warm in the night
i was cold as a stone

but i still haven't found what i'm looking for
but i still haven't found what i'm looking for