i'm developing a taste for ben kweller. he's interesting. i was wondering whether i should change my tastes in music recently. all this assorted alternative/emo/alt-rock stuff tends to get angsty. maybe i'll get into rap that's only about pimps and hoes and shoving caps in people's asses or something. when you don't relate to the music, you don't have to feel it.

why is there so much fear to extend myself? i'm too aware of my weaknesses these days.

i wish there were less.

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"I Don't Know Why" ~Ben Kweller

check me out
i'm losing control
i wanna rock and roll
but everything i plan just slips right through my hand
i don't know why

i'm a nice guy
i wanna take it easy, baby
but every time i start, my world falls apart
i don't know why

the world is feelin' like it's passin' me by
i'm fixin' to lose it
but i don't know why

check me in
i wanna be your friend
i wanna be your lover, baby
but everything i say comes out the wrong way
i don't know why

so i guess i'll let it slide by
i wanna take it slowly, honey
i'm feelin' like a fake, every move i make
i don't know why

the world is feelin' like it's passin' me by
i'm fixin' to lose it
but i don't know why

again and again and again and again i try
i'm fixin' to lose it
but i don't know why