i like the phone. i don't think people appreciate the telephone as much anymore, due to the pseudo-conversation of AIM. instant messaging is almost real-time, but not quite. attention is split between too many different people, the backspace key can hide truth, and some people just type too damn slowly. besides, seeing grammar/spelling errors can really detract from a conversation for me. yeah, i'm a geek. so what?

i like voices. i like how it's more natural, the occasional stutter, the wider range of aural expression, the phone warm against my ear, feeling as close as possible if physical nearness is impossible, and true laugh-out-loud moments without seeing stupid LOL-ing.

random thought. you know what's sexy? besides the obvious cut-body-pecs-abs-whatever bit, i have a love for a deep voice and nice hands. mmm.

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when you get down to it, i can be a fairly optimistic person. i'm definitely optimistic for other people, but for myself...only sometimes. it's that hopeful cynicism thing. some confidence tempered with self-awareness and humility.

i believe most people have the ability to accomplish many things if they work diligently enough for it in some cases...so the ability is there, but what about the propensity? i would prefer to think everyone has at least a slight talent or inclination for some skill or field--it's just a matter of finding it. what if you never figure it out though? then you're stuck in some deadend job for which you work your ass off and with which you are never happy. what a miserable life.

always wandering down a path, trying to keep other routes open, but they fade away without commitment. what if one of the disappearing branches was what you have been looking for and would be best at but you didn't realize it?

we're stupid, ignorant fools. the more you learn, the more you realize you know nothing. life is ironic and annoying.

oh well. i don't know where i'm going with this. much like my life.
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