life is not fair. that's all there is to it. wonderful things occur at times, shit happens at others, who knows why?

people who believe in some higher power, in some sort of fate - they think things happen for a reason. but no one deserves certain things. i wouldn't wish some tragedies on even someone i truly hated, even if it isn't an uncommon tragedy in the larger perspective. it's not world hunger, but it personally affects those you care about.

to my friend - i wish i could be there. remember that you can always call. it hurts all over again for you; i don't know why that would help except to remind you that you're not alone.

wouldn't it be nice to have a magic phrase you could utter to make everything feel all right? i wish i had that for you.

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"Fly Away" -Poe

it makes sense that it should happen this way
that the sky should break, and the earth should shake
as if to say, "sure, it all matters but in such an
unimportant way"
as if to say,

"fly away, sweet bird of prey
fly, fly away
nothing can stand in your way"
sweet bird, if you knew the words
i know you'd say, "fly, fly away"

it makes sense that it should hurt in this way
that my heart should break, and my hands should shake
as if to say, "sure, it don't matter except in the most
important way"
as if to say,

"fly away, sweet bird of prey
fly, fly away
i won't stand in your way"
sweet bird, if you knew the words
i know that you'd say, "fly, fly away"

it makes sense that it should feel just this way
that you slowly fade and yet still remain
as if to say, "everything matters in such an invisible way"
as if to say, "it's okay"
fly...away