well that was rather depressing. pfft.

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in old news, thank you to everyone who cared that it was my birthday :) lovelove. i am old.

uninspired. updating just for the hell of it. but i saw eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. trippy goodness. go watch. :)

22 is such a letdown. birthdays just mark a random annual date when you look around...and realize that birthdays are bullshit after 21. no legal age goal to reach. you hear from the friends who care and won't hear from the ones that don't. you'll probably get a few words from people who pretend to care too. seems like everyday life to me.

vegas had better make up for this bullshit. oy, what a random black mood. i apologize.

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"Bend and Not Break" -Dashboard Confessional

i pedal up these steps now
decisive and intentioned
precise a pattern specifically to yours
i'm talented at breathing
especially exhaling
so that my chest will rise and fall with yours

i'm careful not to wake you
fearing conversation
it's better just to hold you
and keep you pacified
i'm talented with reason
i cover all the angles
i can fail before i ever try

try to understand there's an old mistake that fools will make
and i'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away
won't you hold me now? (i will not bend, i will not break)
won't you hold me now? (i will not bend, i will not break)

i am feeling agile
i can bend and not break
but i can break and take it with a smile
and i am so resilient
i recover quickly
i'll convince you soon that i am fine

try to understand there's an old mistake that fools will make
and i'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away
won't you hold me now? (i will not bend, i will not break)
won't you hold me now?

just hold me close to you, just hold me close to you
just hold me close to you, just hold me close to you, to you

and try to understand there's an old mistake that fools will make
and i'm the king of them, pushing everything that's good away
so won't you hold me now?
won't you hold me now?
now, now, now, now, now