it's been a while, no? well it has been for me. my internet addiction and all =P

you know, i was going to try to refrain from talking about 9/11, but all those tv "tributes" annoyed me so much yesterday. i just couldn't watch the media exploit it again so i went to the gym. and saw a whole freaking lot of people with the same plan as me. sure, it's good to remember, but we really don't need mtv trying to be touching and putting melissa joan hart between two music videos to tell us where she was on 9/11. i don't give a flying piece of crap. i think one of the only messages we should take away from 9/11 as a nation is that we are not invincible and no, not everyone in the world wants to be us. we should be learning humility. yes, it was extremely tragic and what happened was in no way right, and we should put an end to the al qaeda--but they do not speak for afghanistan, and so many of them are suffering now. how can afghans sympathize with america when americans are the ones bombing them now? yeah, national pride's great, and it's fine that america's even more patriotic these days than before, but i worry that some people get carried away with it and become almost xenophobic.

blah i don't need to be talking about that now. it's being covered quite well on all fronts--but all that violence and retaliation doesn't sit well with me at all. and now with a very probable war against iraq...it's all pretty scary. i wonder if a world without war is actually possible--without oppression and dictatorship either. huh.

back in my own petty little world, i had the first day of school wrong. therefore, i do not have a week off before the first day of school as i thought--just one weekend. what a great beginning to a year that will most likely kill me with stress of all kinds anyway.

this all sucks.

can you be my haven?

* * *
you're in my mind
all of the time,
but i know it's not enough.
if the sky can crack,
there must be some way back
for love and only love.