fairly recent pictures

david managed to drag me to see 28 days later because i'm so out of it, i hadn't heard that it was a "zombie flick" or whatever. fortunately, i thought it was a good, smart movie. i think it fits the following analogy: 28 days later is to zombie movies as signs is to alien movies. kind of. signs was significantly...more pretentious. 28 days turned out to be more about human nature than anything else--lord of the flies-esque near the end.

in any case, it was a bit startling...the "zombies" were pretty gross and there was plenty of violence. i don't normally do too well with those types of movies. [alex, i still hate you for making me watch the ring.]

so i found myself hugging my own knees =P

also saw mr. mike lee yesterday. same ol' i-hate-everything biting sarcasm. ah, with that and sherman back in my AIM profile, all is right with the world again.

then kuan, howard, and i spent 3 hours playing set and chinese poker. god, we're losers. haha. thank you for being losers with me =)

slightly amusing: bea, my wondrous roommate, likes to affectionately call me her "nudie roommate." that's her nickname for me, okay? so maybe there's a little basis for it if you know me or you've read some of my old blogs...shut up. anyway, she sent me an email with the subject heading, "my nudie roommate." i was thisclose to deleting it because when i glanced at it quickly, i thought it was porn spam. hahaha. dirty bea. =D

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it's all sort of empty. i thought i was standing strong while others foolishly rushed by and grabbed lines leading nowhere, but maybe i'm the one who's been running....away from everyone.

i just don't care as much anymore. i want to say that i wish someone could make me care...yet on principle, i feel that i should make myself care on my own. if that makes any sense. uh...i think i make less and less sense as i go on these days.

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"The Tower" -Vienna Teng

the one who survives by making the lives
of others worthwhile
she's coming apart
right before my eyes
the one who depends on the services she renders
to those who come knocking
she's seeing too clearly what she can't be
what understanding defies

she says, i need not to need
or else a love with intuition
someone who reaches out to my weakness and won't let go
i need not to need
i've always been the tower
but now i feel like i'm the flower trying to bloom in snow

she turns out the light anticipating night falling
tenderly around her
and watches the dusk
the words won't come
she carries the act so convincingly the fact is
sometimes she believes it
that she can be happy the way things are
be happy with the things she's done

and yet i need not to need
or else a love with intuition
someone who reaches out to my weakness and won't let go
i need not to need
i've always been the tower
but now i feel like i'm the flower trying to bloom in snow

reach out
but hold back
where is safety?
reach out
and hold back
where is the one who can change me?
where is the one?
the one

i need not to need
or else a love with intuition
someone who reaches out to my weakness and won't let go
i need not to need
i've always been the tower
but now i feel like i'm the flower trying to bloom in snow
i feel like i'm the flower trying to bloom in snow
the danger and the power
the friend and foe