staying home alone on a friday
flat on the floor looking back
on old love
or lack thereof
after all the crushes are faded
and all my wishful thinking was wrong
i'm jaded
i hate it
~from "love song for no one," john mayer

that's exactly how i'm feeling. that, and i'm just...adrift. people need to stop talking about relationships with me because it's slowly and steadily chipping away at my optimism. i'd rather not think about guys at all, but that would make life a bit more boring, no? oh well. i'm just at a loss for words these days.