feeling anxious because i don't seem to know anything anymore--how i feel, what i want, what lies ahead, what i left behind...so unsettling. you can only take a zen-like approach to life for so long.

sometimes you just want to be 100% sure and safe about something. security--that's not asking too much, is it? i know there will always be some constants in my life, and i'm incredibly grateful, but these security blankets don't quite reach every single corner. obviously i can do without...but extra comfort is nice. oh well.

too many yet not enough at the same time...bah. i'm tired.