i think i'm pms-ing. i hate getting overly emotional and shit. ugh. okay, well pms usually only makes me a little angsty and listen to a lot of sappy music...but still annoying. males have it too easy with fairly constant hormone levels =P

and now i'm going to post the lyrics to something corporate's "konstantine" because i feel like it. i know it's a freaking long song and there are a lot of lyrics, but i don't care. this is my blog and you can read it or leave it. this song makes me feel though, you know? and i'm all about the lyrics ;-) easier to put up someone else's lyrics than post my own poems.

i have realized i am a huge emo girl. *sigh*

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"Konstantine" -Something Corporate

i can't imagine all the people that you know
and the places that you go
when the lights are turned down low
and i don't understand all the things you've seen
but i'm slipping inbetween
you and your big dreams
it's always you
in my big dreams

and you tell me that it's over
wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers
and you're restless and i'm naked
you've gotta get out, you can't stand to see me shaking
no
could you let me go?
i didn't think so

and you don't wanna be here in the future
so you say the present's just a pleasant interruption to the past
and you don't wanna look much closer
'cause you're afraid to find out all this hope
you had sent into the sky by now had crashed
and it did
because of me

and then you bring me home
afraid to find out that you're alone
and i'm sleeping in your living room
but we don't have much room
to live

i had these dreams and then i learned to play guitar
maybe cross the country
become a rock star
and there was hope in me that i could take you there
but dammit you're so young
well i don't think i care
and if i hurt you
then i'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy

then you'd bring me home
'cause we both know what it's like to be alone
and i'm dreaming in your living room
but we don't have much room
to live

and Konstantine is walking down the stairs
doesn't she look good
standing in her underwear?
and i was thinking
what i was thinking
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

my Konstantine came walking down the stairs
and all that i could do is touch her long blonde hair
and i've been thinking
it hurts me thinking that these nights when we were drinking
no, they never got us anywhere
no

this is because i can spell konfusion with a k
and i can like it
it's to dying in another's arms and why i had to try it
it's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car
when the first star you see may not be a star
"i'm not your star"
isn't that what you said?
what you thought this song meant?

and if this is what it takes
just to lie with my mistakes
and live with what i did to you
and all the hell i put you through
i always catch the clock
it's 11:11 and now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
you'll always be my Konstantine

Konstantine, they'll never hurt you like i do
no, they'll never hurt you like i do
no, no, no no no no no no

this is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
hey, you know
you keep me up in bed
this is to a girl who got into my head
with all these fucked up things i did
hey, maybe, baby
you could keep me up in bed
my Konstantine
spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen
and i said
did you know i missed you?
oh god i miss you

and then you bring me home
and we go to sleep, but this time not alone, no no
and you'll kiss me in your living room
i know you'll miss me in your living room
'cause these nights i think maybe that i miss you in my living room
we don't have much room
i said, does anybody need that room?
because we all need a little more room
to live

my Konstantine