you know what makes me all shivery inside? bono's voice. mmm. it's just so...full of emotion. as though he truly means and feels everything he sings.

i admire sincerity. it's open, goes straight to the heart...cuts through all the bullshit. this is who i am, this is what i feel, the only thing i'm trying to do is be honest.

too bad some can fake it so easily. the older i get, the less likely i am to believe in complete sincerity, especially from people who aren't my friends. what's in it for you? words are words. who knows what you really think?

i wonder whether i've become too self-preserving now. at the sign of possible emotional pain, sometimes i snap closed--and hope i took off a finger.

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"Last Night on Earth" -U2

she feels the ground is giving way
but she thinks we're better off that way
"the more you take, the less you feel
the less you know the more you believe
the more you have, the more it takes today"

you gotta give it away...
well she don't care what it's worth
she's living like it's the last night on earth
the last night on earth

she's not waiting on a savior to come
she's at the bus stop
with the news of the world
and the sun, sun, here it comes
she's not waiting for anyone

you gotta give it away...
well she don't care what it's worth
she's living like it's the last night on earth
the last night on earth

slipping away, slip, slide
too many slipping away
the world turns and we get dizzy
slipping away

she's living, living next week now
you know she's gonna pay you back somehow
she hasn't been to bed in a week
she'll be dead soon, then she'll sleep

you gotta give it away...
she already knows it hurts
she's living like it's the last night on earth