the idea of doing something i love for the rest of my life is infinitely appealing. i honestly don't know what that might be, but you always hear about some extremely weird, off-the-beaten-track occupation that fits someone like a glove. that's what i want. some really odd, tailor-made job that will be completely fun, which would currently involve crossword-puzzle solving, eating, dorky-cool people, reading, writing, optional intermittent naps, and a lot of laughing. simple, no? :)

i think i insult people too much. i never mean it in a sincere way, but sometimes things just tumble out of my mouth. =X i've gotten too used to joking around with friends and probably am too sarcastic for my own good sometimes. i need to remember that some people may not be able to tell whether i'm kidding. words of advice: if it sounds mean, i'm joking. i only tease good friends like that anyway; it honestly is a sign of affection. yes, my affection is fucked up, but so is life. sorry! perversity is just too amusing. besides, if everyone were constantly nice and complimenting each other all the time, compliments would lose their value and life would be very, very bland. the sweet just ain't as sweet without the bitter. :)

screw your sib was fun except only 1 out of 4 little sibs could actually make it :( rina's awesome though. yay little sib! that night emphasized the fact that i am old...and asian people can turn very red. haha! one of the best parts of sys is just seeing how drunk off their asses some people get. dim lighting can be such a blessing at certain times ;) also, little sis yuanxin did an awesome job. i know through experience that being a coordinator totally sucks all the fun out of the dance, but we appreciated all your work, girl! and thanks to dave for being a great date. that rhymed!

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"Someday" -Nickelback

how the hell did we wind up like this?
why weren't we able
to see the signs that we missed
and try to turn the tables?
i wish you'd unclench your fists
and unpack your suitcase
lately there's been too much of this
but don't think it's too late

nothing's wrong, just as long as
you know that someday i will
someday, somehow
i'm gonna make it all right, but not right now
i know you're wondering when
(you're the only one who knows that)
someday, somehow
i'm gonna make it all right, but not right now
i know you're wondering when

well, i'd hoped that since we're here anyway
we could end up saying
things we've always needed to say
so we could end up stringing
now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
let's rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror

nothing's wrong, just as long as
you know that someday i will
someday, somehow
i'm gonna make it all right, but not right now
i know you're wondering when
(you're the only one who knows that)
someday, somehow
i'm gonna make it all right, but not right now
i know you're wondering when
(you're the only one who knows that)

how the hell did we wind up like this?
why weren't we able
to see the signs that we missed
and try to turn the tables?
now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
let's rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror

nothing's wrong, just as long as
you know that someday i will
someday, somehow
i'm gonna make it all right, but not right now
i know you're wondering when
(you're the only one who knows that...)