i don't know if you actually want to read this, but i'm doing to write it anyway. i warn you that it's going to be pretty nasty...and not in that way, you pervs.

so yesterday, i started my period. you know, was menstruating, rode the crimson wave, was on my rag, visited japan, i'm sure you can think of more creative euphemisms for that. now i don't really go through PMS, except for the occasional heightened emotional sensitivity, but i do get nasty menstrual cramps. almost debilitating. midol doesn't do jack, by the way.

this last time was probably the worst though...maybe it was also something i ate, but my stomach felt so horrible, i threw up. i hate throwing up. it's one of the grossest bodily functions ever. i mean, there you are regurgitating partially digested food and bile, and since it's going back up through your mouth, you can taste it. if the vomiting action is particularly extreme, it can also go through your nose. if there's something that tastes and smells worse than vomit, please tell me about it. and then i will smack you because that will be absurdly disgusting.

i also expounded the following theory to michelle, and she looked at me extremely oddly, but i'm used to that. so you know that gag reflex that most people have when they smell or see vomit? i think that could be evolutionarily advantageous. people near the vomiter (that really is a noun form) may have eaten the same bad food that caused the original vomiter to spew cookies, so it makes sense that their bodies also try to expel possible nasty food.

in any case, after i throw up, i always have to wonder how people can be bulimic. throwing up is pure misery for me, and then it's just...nastiness in the aftermath. besides, what a waste of food. i would personally hate the idea of buying and consuming food only to get rid of it and lose money on that investment. yeah, i'm cheap. shut up.

ooh, sudden thought. you know what type of person would absolutely be the most disgusting to kiss? a bulimic smoker who doesn't like to brush teeth. oh good god.

i need to stop grossing myself out.

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completely different note, i am re-into athenaeum. need to buy the second album =) someone described their song "sweeter love" as "what the band would play at Flash Gordon's wedding." i can see that working! they're normally mellower though...like "suddenly" or the classic "what i didn't know" and "flat tire" - good stuff.

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"Sweeter Love" -Athenaeum

i do not believe in fairy tales
i have bit off all my fingernails
i will never wash these sheets again
you know the ones you left me in

there's no sweeter love
there's no sweeter love
there's no sweeter love than mine
there's no sweeter love
so what are you thinking of?
there's no sweeter love than mine
and if you disagree
set me free

i did not believe in self defense
'til you crushed me like an ornament
when you hung me from your kissing tree
you flaunted me
you fucked with me

there's no sweeter love
there's no sweeter love
there's no sweeter love than mine
there's no sweeter love
so what are you thinking of?
there's no sweeter love than mine
and if you disagree
set me free
if you disagree
set me free