edit: HOLY COW! huge comeback! that was very exciting. =D 39-38, niners. mmm.

hello. 2002 is over. time for another year. hoorah.

do you ever wonder why people think new years is the time for revolutionizing their lives? i mean, really, new year day is pretty arbitrarily set. it's just another day. what makes it any more special than august 16th? life doesn't change too much except now you have to remember to write 2003 instead of 2002 on documents. i've ceased being excited about so many holidays--just getting old and cynical. i still went out for new year's eve and all--eh, whatever. maybe i should have gotten trashed =P

break has been very chill, very what i needed. sleep, food, family, friends--good stuff. i really don't want to go back. i also realized i've been to q-cup four times during break already. geez. but hey, jay chou on the plasma tv screens...sweet! =) break also involved a piercing, a lot of cranium and naked game, and a lot of tv. actually, i'm currently trying to distract myself from a sorry wildcard playoff game. ugh. sometimes it's painful to watch. "it's a bad day in san francisco." fully in agreement.

lost anything resembling a train of thought. sorry.

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"Bring me to Life" ~Evanescence

how can you see into my eyes, like open doors
leading you down into my core
where i've become so numb
without a soul
my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

wake me up inside, wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run, before i come undone
save me from the nothing i've become

now that i know what i'm without, you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

wake me up inside, wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run, before i come undone
save me from the nothing i've become

bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch, without your love, darling
only you are the life among the dead

all this time i can't believe i couldn't see
kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me
i've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more

wake me up inside, wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run, before i come undone
save me from the nothing i've become
i've been living a lie
there's nothing inside
bring me to life