san diego was awesome--well, the little bit of it i actually did see in about a day. yay for amanda =) thanks for doing your laundry so i could have a towel. thanks for letting me sleep in your squishy bed. thank you for not kicking me. =D i done tagged you up good. [yes, i know that's improper grammar, dorks. shut up.] HA #2!! hehe.

cher and chris chen took time out to hang out with little ol' me too. yay msj! ucsd is pretty. pacific beach was nice--like berkeley except people wear less clothing. buffalo exchange was cool. cher's place was nice. ernesto is freaky. you two are hilarious. =)

amanda's formals were so beautiful--and elaborate. geez. amanda looked beautiful and tau class dance was awesome. you girls worked so much on it, and it paid off! hanging out with amanda's gdi roomies was amusing--and they liked pretending they were from stanford too ;-) socal kdphi are cool.

all in all, i wish i could have stayed longer--but alum luncheon and our own presents today! our alumnae are so inspiring--good times. bao's slideshow was incredible...i watched it again when i got back. hehe. got the chills when "one" started playing. then we presented our lovely lambda pledge class--i have great hopes for you all. my littles are so cute =) i know p-ro and my lil willow will guide them well.

i am too tired to think now. no sleep last night since my flight was at 6:13 am this morning. thanks so much to alan for driving an almost-complete-stranger to the airport at freaking 5 am. ah, utilizing amanda's connections. miss you, meimei.

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"One" -U2

is it getting better
or do you feel the same?
will it make it easier on you now
you got someone to blame?
you say...

One love
One life
when it's one need
in the night
One love
we get to share it
leaves you, baby, if you
don't care for it

did i disappoint you
or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
you act like you never had love
and you want me to go without
well it's...

too late
tonight
to drag the past out into the light
we're one, but we're not the same
we get to
carry each other
carry each other
One...

have you come here for forgiveness?
have you come to raise the dead?
have you come here to play jesus
to the lepers in your head?

did i ask too much
more than a lot?
you gave me nothing
now it's all i got
we're one
but we're not the same
well we
hurt each other
then we do it again
you say
love is a temple
love a higher law
love is a temple
love the higher law
you ask me to enter
but then you make me crawl
and i can't be holding on
to what you got
when all you got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
you got to do what you should
One life
with each other
sisters
brothers
One life
but we're not the same
we get to
carry each other
carry each other

One...

i think i spent 5 hours straight on my problem set tonight. good lord. thank god for c.chiou--if i weren't working with her, i would have been weak and gone to sleep. yes, sleep is for the weak! except i almost typed, "weak is for the sleep" just now. crap.

life's kicking into "busier" gear. i think that's why my blogs are slow and slightly down these days. i need some time with my dimmer thoughts, you know? the life you allow others to see can be so blinding sometimes.

oh, i posted some of my birthday and reno pictures i jacked from deb on my xanga. take a peek if you'd like.

pledge welcome was tonight--super rowdy. they're too cute. =) and san diego tomorrow night...or later today. wish i could visit longer =\ give me a call, cher!

c.chiou's roomie, nina, was playing this tonight. still one of my favorite songs...it just makes you all nostalgic/yearning/wistful:

* * *
"All I Want" -Toad the Wet Sprocket

nothing's so loud
as hearing when we lie
the truth is not kind
and you've said neither am i
but the air outside so soft
is saying everything
everything

all i want is to feel this way
to be this close, to feel the same
all i want is to feel this way
the evening speaks, i feel it say...

nothing's so cold
as closing the heart when all we need
is to free the soul
but we wouldn't be that brave i know
and the air outside so soft
confessing everything
everything

and it won't matter now
whatever happens to me
though the air speaks of all we'll never be
it won't trouble me

and it feels so close
let it take me in
let it hold me so
i can feel it say...

wow. that number boggles my mind. i had to eat my words...but in a good way. =) best of luck to our lambda pledge class--i can see that you have the ability to do so many great things.

bea's been complaining about my mood swings today. i think it's just because i'm feeling so...unsettled. i hate it when too many thoughts run through my head. damn my large brain. hah. too much space for the few thoughts that i do have to fly around and bump into each other. thinking causes so many troubles. requires too many decisions. but sometimes it's pretty simple to stop thinking about things you don't want to think about. i'm an expert.

you know, it's just a little lonely
when you feel like you shouldn't tell certain things. i think secrets can form strong selective bonds--but how strong is the material that makes up the bond? and they build such huge walls in other directions. that's why i like honesty.

man, i was right about only stopping the introspectiveness for only one entry. and this shit isn't nearly coherent either. blah.

--
here, i'll let you laugh at me again:

so yesterday i volunteered to buy a bunch of irises. yay irises are great, but no store had enough! went to three different places to buy enough irises, and by the time willow and i were done, i only had 20 minutes to shower before lambda bidnight. fine. doable. except i had to carry my freaking heavy laundry basket up to my room from my car first--and i REALLYREALLY HAD TO PEE.

i waddle as quickly as possible out of the parking lot, up the stairs, and down the hall with my laundry basket, slam into my room and drop the basket, yelling at bea, "i need to pee! i need to pee!" then i proceed to throw off my clothes, grab my towel, and head out the door.

i'm halfway out the door when bea exclaims, "christina, you're not wearing any clothes!"

oh. right. i wrap my towel around myself as quickly as possible and practically run down the hall to the bathroom...

except i've forgotten my shower supplies in my room and have to go back without bursting my bladder first.

ah, i love my life. at least i provide entertainment for my roommate =D