wouldn't it be neat to be intriguing forever? to always have that pull of attraction, of mystery...eternally the temptress. [isn't temptress such a wonderfully spicy word?]

but eventually most people will think they know everything worth knowing about you if you let them in. without the excitement of getting to know someone new, what's left? just start taking bets on how long it will take for someone to leave.

no, i'd like to have the superpower of controlling my intrigue please. then i could choose the ones i want and lead them down a little farther if i ever feel them falling back; i could repel the ones who should stay in their own space. i would wield my superpower with responsibility and consideration :) and maybe things would work out for once.

okay, so intriguing forever may not be possible. i suppose i'll have to settle for random.

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"Let Go" -Frou Frou

drink up, baby, down
mmm, are you in or are you out?
leave your things behind
'cause it's all going off without you
'scuze me, too busy
you're writing your tragedy
these mishaps, your bubble wrap, when
you've no idea what you're like...

so let go
mmm, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for?
it's all right
'cause there's beauty
in the breakdown
yeah, let go
just get in
oh, it's so amazing here
it's all right
'cause there's beauty
in the breakdown

it gains the more it gives
and then it rises with the fall
so hand me that remote
can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow?
such boundless pleasure
we've no time for later now, you
can't await your own arrival, you've
twenty seconds to comply

so let go
jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for?
it's all right
'cause there's beauty
in the breakdown
yeah, let go
just get in
oh, it's so amazing here
it's all right
'cause there's beauty
in the breakdown...

life is not fair. that's all there is to it. wonderful things occur at times, shit happens at others, who knows why?

people who believe in some higher power, in some sort of fate - they think things happen for a reason. but no one deserves certain things. i wouldn't wish some tragedies on even someone i truly hated, even if it isn't an uncommon tragedy in the larger perspective. it's not world hunger, but it personally affects those you care about.

to my friend - i wish i could be there. remember that you can always call. it hurts all over again for you; i don't know why that would help except to remind you that you're not alone.

wouldn't it be nice to have a magic phrase you could utter to make everything feel all right? i wish i had that for you.

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"Fly Away" -Poe

it makes sense that it should happen this way
that the sky should break, and the earth should shake
as if to say, "sure, it all matters but in such an
unimportant way"
as if to say,

"fly away, sweet bird of prey
fly, fly away
nothing can stand in your way"
sweet bird, if you knew the words
i know you'd say, "fly, fly away"

it makes sense that it should hurt in this way
that my heart should break, and my hands should shake
as if to say, "sure, it don't matter except in the most
important way"
as if to say,

"fly away, sweet bird of prey
fly, fly away
i won't stand in your way"
sweet bird, if you knew the words
i know that you'd say, "fly, fly away"

it makes sense that it should feel just this way
that you slowly fade and yet still remain
as if to say, "everything matters in such an invisible way"
as if to say, "it's okay"
fly...away