Monday, May 24, 2004

aasa charity fashion show was friday night; i am the seasoned audience expert. i've discovered i really like being obnoxiously loud when cheering. amazing job, you umpteen kdphi who were involved. :)

sorry to cathy whom i woke 3 hours too early for our shift to volunteer at the special olympics. um...whoops? we had a nice breakfast anyway, and eventually made it over. i wish we had more to do when we were volunteering though.

today i made it to berkeley for jen's commencement. congratulations, jen-butt :) i love you and all the girlfam (debsanjenmardi) i finally saw today after the fantastic failure to meet up on saturday night. i bought jen a book as a graduation gift; yes, i am fabulously geeky! it was incredibly comforting to hang out with deb in her apartment for one last time too. then alan finally visited me while he was in norcal, and he treated me to shrek 2 :) very entertaining.

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unrelated to anything above, i haven't experienced as much anger as i felt the other day in a very long time. being trivialized, belittled, and discounted all at once can piss a friend off. get over yourself and i'll get over you - let's make it a race and see which one happens first.

had one killer headache tonight too - must have been after-effects of rage. i'm not used to this shit.

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"That's Just What You Are" -Aimee Mann

in our endeavor we are never seeing eye to eye
no guts to sever so forever may we wave goodbye
and you're always telling me that it's my turn to move
when i wonder what could make the needle jump the groove
i won't fall for the oldest trick in the book
so don't sit there and think you're off of the hook
by saying there is no use changing
'cause that's just what you are
that's just what you are

acting steady always ready to defend your fears
what's the matter with the truth, did i offend your ears
by suggesting that a change might be a thing to try
like it would kill you just to try and be a nicer guy?
it's not like you would lose some critical piece
if somehow you moved point A to point B
maintaining there is no point changing
'cause that's just what you are
that's just what you are

now i could talk to you till i'm blue in the face
but we still would arrive at the very same place
with you running around and me out of the race

so maybe you're right, nobody can take
something older than time and hope you could make
it better, that would be a mistake
so take it just so far
'cause that's just what you are
that's just what you are
that's just what you are

acting steady always ready to defend your fears
what's the matter with the truth, did i offend your ears?
you're like a sleepwalking man, it's a danger to wake you
even when it is apparent where your actions will take you

that's just what you are