i hate how underwear doesn't fit perfectly. i don't know if this is a common problem with all females or asian females or maybe it's only me...but it is supremely annoying.

the ever-popular victoria's secret underwear is comfortable enough but even the small size always rides up to just about the middle of my back--horrible for low-rise jeans. the vicky's secret ideal ass obviously fills out the trunk better.

and last weekend i bought a couple pairs of underwear at american eagle. i got this really cute pair of low-rise bikini underwear except it won't fit nicely. now i'm fairly sure the "average woman" my size has wider hips since i'm asian and all, but the waist of this pair is a little too tight while the crotch fabric is too wide and bunches up. are the legs of "average women" set farther apart than mine while their hips are slimmer? it makes no sense!

the only conclusions i can draw are that my legs are too close together, my hips are too wide, and my butt too flat for a girl my size in america. i guess i need asian underwear or something. as if women don't have enough problems as it is; our underwear doesn't even fit properly! sigh.

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what once was harmless fun usually devolves into defense and perhaps not-so-harmlessness. saddening thought.

and that part in my last entry was not referring to pms. typical male assumption =P

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"More to Life" -Stacey Orrico
from amanda ;)

i've got it all, but i feel so deprived
i go up, i come down and i'm emptier inside
tell me what is this thing that i feel like i'm missing
and why can't i let go?

there's gotta be more to life
than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
'cause the more that i'm
tripping out thinking there must be more to life
well it's life, but i'm sure there's gotta be more
than wanting more

i've got the time and i'm wasting it slowly
here in this moment i'm half way out the door
onto the next thing, i'm searching for something that's missing

there's gotta be more to life
than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
'cause the more that i'm
tripping out thinking there must be more to life
well it's life, but i'm sure there's gotta be more
than wanting more

than waiting on something other than this
why am i feelin' like there's something i missed

there's gotta be more to life
than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
'cause the more that i'm
tripping out thinking there must be more to life
well it's life, but i'm sure there's gotta be more to life...

race for the cure was great again :) saw some of the girls [woohoo!] and paloma even drove all the way up from LA--crazy, wonderful woman! volunteering there every year makes me so happy...but obnoxious fuckers piss me off. i was just doing my job as a course monitor when this middle-aged man comes up to me and says, "this thing is taking up the entire path." i thought he was going to remark upon how many people were participating and stuff so i smiled, but then he continued, "they can't do that. this is bullshit! the city's going to hear about this." fucker. obviously he's been jogging...perhaps he didn't realize that those feet can take him around the path too. if he or someone close to him gets breast cancer, we'll see how much more annoyed he'll be then. ugh. he made a big ugly black blotch on an otherwise shiny, happy day.

oh, conan o'brien is so sexy. elaine and amanda expressed disgust at my crush, but they just don't appreciate you as i do, conan. your sense of humor and intelligence are so hot. if only you weren't married and about to have a child, if only you weren't 40, if only you were incredibly attracted to 21-year-old dorky asian girls, if only stalking were legal.... alas, too many if only's. it will be hopeless for us, my love. okay, fine, i'll stop. i'm starting to scare myself. but read conan's harvard commencement speech if you haven't. and i need to watch his 10th anniversary special. ahhh. i guess a couple good things did come out of harvard ;)

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i don't like how my mood can be so dependent upon...these things i don't want it to be dependent upon. haha. "ew! ew! ew!" in any case, onward! maybe the next high will last a bit longer.

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"Flake" -Jack Johnson

i know she said it's all right
but you can make it up next time
i know she knows it's not right
there ain't no use in lying
maybe she thinks i know something
maybe, maybe she thinks its fine
or maybe she knows something i don't
i'm so, i'm so tired, i'm so tired of trying

it seems to me that maybe
it pretty much always means no
so don't tell me you might just let it go
and oftentimes we're lazy
it seems to stand in my way
'cause no one, no, not no one
likes to be let down

i know she loves the sunrise
no longer sees it with her sleeping eyes and
i know that when she said she's gonna try
well, it might not work because of other ties and
i know she usually has some other ties and
i wouldn't want to break 'em, nah, i wouldn't want to break 'em
maybe she'll help me to untie this, but
until then, well, i'm gonna have to lie too

it seems to me that maybe
it pretty much always means no
so don't tell me you might just let it go
and oftentimes we're lazy
it seems to stand in my way
'cause no one, no, not no one
likes to be let down
it seems to me that maybe
it pretty much always means no
so don't tell me you might just let it go

the harder that you try, baby, the further you'll fall
even with all the money in the whole wide world
please please please don't pass me...by

everything you know about me now, baby, you gonna have to change
you gonna have to call it by a brand new name
please please please don't drag me...down

just like a tree down by the water, baby, i shall not move
even after all the silly things you do
please please please don't drag me...down