spago scallops...oh good lord, so good.
i miss bea. she is too far away on the other side of campus. bad! but here we are on the caltrain heading up to the giants game a few weeks back (isn't she so cute?):
and here i am with my mom and amanda. don't i look like my mom? doesn't amanda look like a trashca--i mean, uh, that was just a joke i used to tell her...okay, amanda, we didn't really find you in a trashcan. you look like cousin anita. happy? :)
and here are the siblings. a normal photograph of brandon is yet to be found.
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if i could be your first real heartache
i would do it over again
don't you wish you could mean exactly as much to someone as they mean to you? even if it all ends unhappily, at least you would know that you affected the other person equally. to feel the same passion, only to feel the same bittersweet ache when it ends - yes, i would relive that.
it's the inequality of caring and consideration that causes an unwelcome pain - knowing that i've hurt someone when i didn't want that at all, or feeling much more than i should when the other person couldn't give a shit. even when they truly regret not returning those feelings, that just makes me feel like a pity case. and i have too much pride for that.
so no, i don't think i would or should do this all over again...and again...and again...
but i do want to be a punk rock princess. :)
"Punk Rock Princess" -Something Corporate
maybe when the room is empty
maybe when the bottle's full
maybe when the door gets broke down love can break in
maybe when i'm done with thinking
maybe you can think me whole
maybe when i'm done with endings
this can begin, this can begin...
if you could be my punk rock princess
i could be your garage band king
you could tell me why you just don't fit in
and how you're gonna be something
maybe when your hair gets darker
maybe when your eyes get wide
maybe when the walls are smaller there will be more - space
maybe when i'm not so tired
maybe you could step inside
maybe when i look for things that i can't replace
i can't replace...
if you could be my punk rock princess
i would be your garage band king
you could tell me why you just don't fit in
and how you're gonna be something
if i could be your first real heartache
i would do it over again
if you could be my punk rock princess
i would be your heroin
i never thought you'd last
i never dreamed you would
you watch your life go past
you wonder if you should
now you should be my punk rock princess
i would be your garage band king
you could tell me why you just don't fit in
and how you're gonna be something
if i could be your first real heartache
i would do it over again
if you could be my punk rock princess
i would be your heroin
you know you only burn my bridges
you know you just can't let it sink in
you could be my heroine
you could be my heroine