today was "be a good big sister day" for me. took brandon out to applebee's (with di because...well, just because i took di =), where he ate a lot of food and di and i shared a chimicheesecake. hehe...those things are good! i dropped di off after lunch and took brandon to watch a movie at century 20...right when i parked, it started pouring and i became preeetty soggy. no umbrella. good thing i made brandon take a jacket before we left though! we ended up watching jimmy neutron (sorry, amanda), and i plopped down like eight bucks for an icee and small popcorn for brandon. yes, eight dollars for an icee and a popcorn. sorry, had to repeat that because i think movie food prices are ridiculous! yeahyeah, i'm a stingy mofo, but when it comes to some things...i spend too much probably. ah well. the movie was okay...not the cutest cartoon in the world. even brandon was annoyed--"how can they breathe in outer space? if they only take all the parents, where are the teenagers?" velly good point. ;-) the kids in the movie even camped out on an asteroid with no air tanks or protective bubble or anything. right. okay, maybe we're too critical. can't help it...brandon's his sister's brother =D

later on, howard drove cher and me to jacq's house...we all had a fun chill time with stan (for a couple minutes), john, paul, tim, jacq, deb, jo, and david. i ate a lot of sugar =) tim: "the pee hole, the baby hole, and the butt hole" hahaha! we played our pseudo-taboo game...it was pretty amusing--girls vs. guys, so of course all the guys wrote down athletes and the girls wrote female-driven entertainers. i'm not sure if that term was very clear, but we'll just say famous people whom many guys wouldn't recognize =) girls still kicked butt though, of course. hehehe

you know, i had some random thought i reallyreally wanted to get down in this blog, but this is the problem with being at home...i can't be online 24/7 so i can't blog whenever the mood strikes. and so the random thought has flitted away. *sigh* poo. my right hand is now freezing...so off i go.

it's 2002! feels just like 2001. =) new years eve wasn't really anything to whoop about this year for me. i had to work till 10:30 since i was stuck closing. bleh =P then i raced home since brandon was home alone for a bit, so i ended up watching him until around midnight. i attempted to take a super-quick shower and get to yeung's house before the countdown, but failed miserably. i ran to the car, discovered my cell wasn't in my purse, ran back into the house, couldn't find my cell, and finally realized i had left it in my car. yes, i am so intelligent. finally arrived at yeung's house around ten or fifteen minutes late. jo, jacq, and deb went to jennie's house, but i was just too lazy and really wanted to bum around and like...not talk to too many people. =) so yeung and i just played blackjack with his brother and a couple of their friends. i suck. i think i was 20 chips in the hole at the end, but ah well. oh, we watched a lot of tv too. dick clark is a cyborg. pink's hair is no longer pink. jay leno is annoying. i love conan.

new year's day i woke up late. did some stuff for my mom, finally was able to sign onto axess to check my grades...not too bad for such a busy quarter...must've been the fact that i only took 14 units =P i'm almost at my goal GPA...must do well this quarter. ooh, looked up my last class too...can only afford 3 more units...4 if i petition. we'll see. most of the ones that get rid of a GER and sound interesting are four units though...hm. there's "asian/pacific american religioius traditions", "twentieth century american fictions" in the feminist studies department, "chinese poetry in translation", and "gender and power in ancient rome." they sound interesting =) think i can handle 20/21 units though? O_o i'm getting ambitious here. anyway, i met up with stan at tapioca express for some pearl milk tea while i stole his chicken before work =D i don't think i was very good company because i was in a rush and still groggy or not really aware yet. sorry, stan. ooh, good news about work today was that i was let off early...yay! went home, spent some quality play-time with my little bro, then was about to leave for deb's house when michelle called. we had a nice chat about "like-whoa" and drug dealers and stanford goggles and lives and asexuality and random stuff. be careful, girl =P then deb, cher, jo, di, and i went to mercado...got some good ol' ben & jerry's (chunky monkey! bestill my heart!) and then watched "kate & leopold." it was rather sappy and pretty cute (and you gotta love hugh jackman and breckin meyer), but i think my current asexual mode didn't let me enjoy it to the fullest. i think i dwell too much on inconsistencies of plot even though i know logic and consistency are not the main characteristics you should or need to look for in romantic comedies. it was a fun time with the girls and hugh jackman's accent made it all worth it ;-)

do i even think anymore? i never feel like i have anything interesting to blog about these days. maybe it's break, but all i seem to be able to do is talk about what i've been doing. so i guess i'll do that.

i went to lunch with di today at pho tam in milpitas...we attempted to go to sushi joe, but it was closed since it was sunday. we had a very nice chat and got some pearl milk tea afterward. i love my di =) she's seriously just one of the coolest people to talk to...i like what she's done with her life so far =D after lunch i just whiled away some time at borders before work...bought around $45 worth of books O_o i did have a gift card to use up though. i really wanted to buy the lord of the rings trilogy, but then i realized i should buy and read the hobbit too. and then i saw the silmarillion and had to have that too, of course. they were missing the two towers for some reason though. i also bought some other random books...shadow of the hegemon and enchantment by orson scott card. okay, so i've read enchantment before, but i really wanted to own it since it was such an amusing book =) yeah, i'm a nerd. i like books. i read for maybe an hour and realized that i've really missed reading...it made me happy =) told you i was a nerd.

so i did my thang at work, yaddayadda, but the horrible part is that i lost my ring there =( i can't believe i was so stupid! it was this really nice ring my mom bought me in thailand, and i remember taking it off to work and putting it in my back pocket, but it must have fallen out when i was changing =( it's really upsetting because i get attached to my jewelry since i usually only wear pieces that have sentimental value and i wear them pretty much all the time. i keep trying to fiddle with my right ring finger, but there's nothing there anymore *sigh* a;ldjfasdlj;f

bah. i know i can't do anything more about it since i already called up the restaurant, but it puts a damper on my mood. later on, my family came back from tahoe...after a while i made it over to deb's so we (deb, jo, cher, jacq, and i) could make aborn the sequel to our last picture book story as a late christmas present to be mailed to australia. it's rather...odd. involves me wearing swim goggles. but hey, we're kooky girls. i'm sure aborn will appreciate it =) then deb, jo, jacq, and i crashed tim's lan party for a little bit and played some frequency on stan's ps2. remind me to work harder on my rhythm =P

i'm feeling so meh. it's late. why do i always go to bed so late? bad.

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Falling for the First Time ~Barenaked Ladies

I'm so cool, too bad I'm a loser
I'm so smart, too bad I can't get anything figured out
I'm so brave, too bad I'm a baby
I'm so fly, that's probably why it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time

I'm so green, it's really amazing
I'm so clean, too bad I can't get all the dirt off of me
I'm so sane, it's driving me crazy
It's so strange, I can't believe it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time

Anyone perfect must be lying,
anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely,
anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction?
What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection?
Maybe the worst is behind
It feels just like I'm falling for the first time

I'm so chill, no wonder it's freezing
I'm so still, I just can't keep my fingers out of anything
I'm so thrilled to finally be failing
I'm so done, turn me over 'cause it
Feels just like I'm falling for the first time

Anything plain can be lovely,
anything loved can be lost
Maybe I lost my direction,
what if our love is the cost?
Anyone perfect must be lying,
anything easy has its cost
Anyone plain can be lovely,
anyone loved can be lost
What if I lost my direction?
What if I lost sense of time?
What if I nursed this infection?
Maybe the worst is behind

back from reno finally =) i just missed my family since they made it to northstar just as i got to davis this morning.

so i attempted to learn how to board on thursday at northstar...i can sum it up in one word: ow. paaaaiiiiin. it was uh...sorta fun i guess? =) i caused some people a scare when they couldn't find me though =\ i was just off taking my boarding lesson which didn't end until 4:00...i did run into chiung afterward though. such a coincidence! he couldn't find any of the friends he came with either, so we caught up a bit while we were waiting and then i slooooowly walked/boarded down the run back to the rental return since the line for the gondola was ridiculously long. we saw joanna huang on the way out too. we stayed at circus circus in four rooms, around eight people per room...rather cozy, i suppose you could say =) next day i just bummed around since my head was aching from my numerous near-concussions. watched dave and needing you dvd's on tim's laptop...gotta love that dave movie and needing you with sammi cheng and andy lau was pretty funny and cute...slightly odd, but cute =) (i want sammi's hair.) later, i won a little elephant in the midway...yay! ran into frank and di that night too...everyone was in reno! deb and jo went a litte hysterical afterward, but when everyone got back to the rooms, we tried to play a massive game of guesstures--girls against guys. had a bit of trouble with hotel security, but the girls were winning anyway of course ;-) left early the next morning for davis...thanks for driving, mike! the weather was pretty bad and his wipers weren't the best...sorta scary, but i was totally out since i didn't sleep much the night before.

so yeah...i got home this afternoon, and it was eerily quiet. my house is usually a zoo with amanda and brandon around. pony's water is changed at last...my thoughts are very scattered right now, sorry. uh...went up to danville, got jumped by dan's huge dog, bailey, saw oceans 11 with dave (since monsters inc. was a bust =P ). nice eyecandy O_o brad pitt and matt damon and george clooney were looking good. i think casey affleck is pretty cute in his own way too =) so many huge names in that movie...dave gave me my christmas present too...a cushion for my butt when i sit under my lofted bed at school and a throw to match! yay! my poor arse is saved. i slightly forgot his present at home though. whoops. man, i'm getting tired. and my tailbone is still bruised. g'night.