regained my equilibrium for now. *sigh of relief* i actually feel normal again. =) i'm still bummed i didn't make it to berkeley to see my buddies or to the big birthday dinner for tim, david, mike, and andy though. the planning for the latter was just too last-minute! =P i wish them all a big, fat HAPPY BIRTHDAY ;-)

i did get to walk in the chinese new year's parade in san francisco tonight though...and how often does that happen? very cool. although they really shouldn't have put the paphi's behind us and the lambdas...bad idea. and being behind some horses was rather nasty...had to watch out for horse crap. ew. oh, later when we were walking to the restaurant, some guy i didn't know held my hand...i thought it was nina! which would be rather weird in itself cuz as a group we're normally into the arm-linking thing, but then i realized nina's hand is not that big. haha...'sokay though. no harm done. i have to admit that was a pretty creative thing to do. "you just looked like you needed someone to hold your hand." er...right.

now to do my problem set if i want to eat lunch with my relatives tomorrow. bye and yay for feeling normal again! =)

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i fight with love
i laugh with rage
you gotta live light enough to see the humour
and long enough to see some change

bio lab always makes me miss lunch on weekends >=| curse you, bio44x! these granola bars are tiny.

parents' weekend makes me sad.

the sky glowered tonight. after a beautiful day, it decided there had been enough sunshine and happiness and readied itself to scare the living hell out of everyone as the wind unsettled the bare branches. the tail end of twilight is probably worse than full night. a thick, smothering new cloudgloom loomed at one side, the contrast with the navy blue of not-quite-night making it seem closer than possible. for an odd moment, i really was frightened of clouds.

wore my light green semi-cardigan today--it doesn't seem to fit anymore. now my hair's a little too short, the color's a little too light, my shoulders are a little too wide. or maybe it just shrank. it used to be one of my favorite pieces of clothing, but it doesn't seem to be like me right now.

on the other hand, i learned about how the nervous system controls male erections today. take a deep breath, it'll make it last longer.

i'm working on my beard.

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they say i'm hopeless
like a penny with a hole in it
they say i'm not less
than up to my head in it

i went on a binge =\ here are some quizzes that chi didn't get to (and some that she did but i just like) and are mostly weird, nonsensical, and fun--the way i like them. we begin with a very interesting new year's resolution ;-)


Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz

and hey, that works since i'm the goddess of love! (at least this quiz says so)

See which Greek Goddess you are.

sort of along those lines...


Take the What animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz


so on what type of guy should i wield these gazelle powers?

Tall, dark, and RUGGEDLY handsome!

hey, since we're on lord of the rings (awesome book/movie!)...

Galadriel If I were a character in The Lord of the Rings, I would be Galadriel, Elf, Queen of Lothlorien, wife of Celeborn and grandmother of Arwen. In the movie, I am played by Cate Blanchett. Who would you be? Zovakware Lord of the Rings Test with Perseus Web Survey Software

elves have magic. faeries have magic too. (this is for cher =)


Go Faeries!!
Take the What Faery Are You? Quiz!

This quiz was made by lia

hey, i'm another (ex)magical creature too:

Which Buffy Girl Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

yeah, i was a demon. don't mess with me, or i will mess you up like a WWF diva.

Which WWF diva are you?

another way i can kick your ass--

Which Action Star Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

flakey?? not all the time...really.

Which Sex and the City Player Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

look at that. although i am evidently reserved too.

This quiz says absolutely nothing about your personality. Take it!

but being intelligent (and a polygon) doesn't always mean anything.

I don't quite get it. I am smarter, fitter, and bolder than my potbellied brother ever could hope to be, yet he gets all the fame, fortune, and glory, not to mention Peach's heart. If only I was the first player in Super Mario Bros... things could have been different. Maybe I can make a comeback, now that I finally have my own game.. but probably not. After all, I'm just Luigi.

What Super Mario Bros character are you?

maybe i'm just a lovable pink loser.


and the rest are just puzzling results that amused me. i guess it's always good to know what type of frog i would be?

These frogs occur in several colour forms, each confined to very small locations within the eastern quadrant of Madagascar. They like their habitat with temperatures around 68 - 70*F and high humidity. This species is very showy in captivity preferring elevated positions out in the open. Males are generally smaller, slimmer and more angular in build than females and not as vocal as other species of mantellas. Females can produce eggs at a rate of once every two months given proper care.
What kind of Frog are you?

huh? i'm going to assume this is not a good thing.

For whom does the human skull shed tears? It sheds tears for you.
Find out what YOUR inner non-sequitur is!
quiz by A.V. Phibes

dammit! no more venezuela.

Come get your fortune read!

Created by ptocheia

Prof. Sapolsky on pain (paraphrased): pain is very subjective--someone could have their ass abraded over and over with sandpaper and it would hurt, but take that same pain from having wild sex in some abnormal place and it will go unnoticed or be ignored.

i have to admit that i'm finding biocore lectures to be very interesting. =)

thanks for trying to inspire me. i've been so wallow-y lately. yeah, wallow-y...it's sickening. it's time to do.

link to my sister is up. she's my best friend so if you mess with her, you mess with me *grr*

from tony: "If you have a job without any aggravations, you don't have a job." -Malcolm S. Forbes

funny how the "mongolian chicken" tastes and looks like the chicken they normally put in fajitas, except with more watery sauce--coincidentally, we had chicken fajitas for lunch today.

thanks to my rugged, manly joyfairy for actually getting me to smile tonight ;-) going through a day without smiling is worse than the horrible day itself.

.::happy dust::.

fucking bureacracy. this is why i am not going to be a politician. diiiiieeeeee!

just let me be premed...that's all i want now. i want to lock myself in a room somewhere and study for hours on end except for volunteering and things that will get me into med school. well, i want to do kdphi stuff still, but that's it. i want time to be nerdy and hardcore premed.

my world seems too claustrophobic these days. it's getting difficult to breathe. i want to escape--but i can't. responsibilities and shit. except i'm doing such a horrible job with them right now anyway...*sigh* suck. i miss being bright and happy and relatively optimistic. this isn't even sophomore slump...more like sophomore death, and ultimately i brought it all upon myself. it's time to make myself pay i guess.

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against my will i stand beside my own reflection
it’s haunting how i can't seem
to find myself again
my walls are closing in

ucaa gives me indigestion.

easy-going, calm christina is slowly being chipped away into pieces--reality then smooshes the remnants into a fine powder. i think i lost my ability to dream for myself.

pleasure is just relief. some of the best feelings in the world--like that post-sneeze feeling or eating or peeing after holding it in for a long time or satisfying a craving or sex--come from feelings of relief. so i realized i won't get to be truly happy ever. there's always going to be something hanging over my head so i will never be relieved from stress or my responsibilities...after i finish this midterm, i've still got club junk to deal with, meetings to attend, more labs to do, another midterm to study for, yaddayadda. even spring break...i'll have to worry about which classes to take and what to do with myself and think about the future. after college is still med school (i hope) and then it's slowly off to the working world. never ends. sort of depressing, but i guess it's better to just accept that now. and look forward to sneezing.