so things are more settled now. yay for weekends. still feeling the "dumb fuck" thing though, as deb so eloquently put it. you don't want to hear what bea and i call ourselves. haha.

"we're not disgusting--we're low maintenance." hell yeah. ;-) we have decided we have mono too, or should pretend to have mono to give ourselves excuses. no matter how many naps we take, we're always tired. okay, some people may attribute this to a build-up of sleep debt or deep-seated psychological issues--or maybe we're just lazy bastards. boo. and eddy wu always drops by when one or both of us are asleep! it's some sort of weird eddy-curse. we are awake sometimes, really!

do you think guys with tall hair are trying to compensate for something or think it'll allow them to go for slightly taller girls? i wonder. sorry, really random digression.

so thursday afternoon, i ended up not going to lab so bea and i (after, yes, waking our lazy asses) went...shopping. *sigh* i got suckered into buying a lot of shiseido skin products. my skin had better look DAMNED good soon. at least the bottles and compacts are pretty. i also think there is definitely a limit to how girly of a look i can pull off--clothing-wise. you know how everything is so...froofy these days? lace and drapey fabrics and ruched everything and big fat bell sleeves...too much of that is definitely not me. all those ruffled sleeves just make me look like a weird bird or something. i'm more for the sleek, classic look usually--okay, unless i'm tired and just rolled out of bed. in that case, i'm more of the sweatshirt and jeans look =P

wow i finally fixed my archives.

and why do i always do this? =(

there's so much running through my head right now--all the thoughts just roll together and slide over and under one another into disorientation.

sometimes events happen that make you question what really is important in your life all over again. those reminders hurt so much but are so necessary. just know that even if i don't say the right thing at the right time, i truly try and i will always be there for you. if my words do not suffice, i hope my feelings will give you the support you need--because you deserve that, and you deserve so much more than you've received. some people are fucked up, but you are so strong, and things will get better. i promise. i <3 you.

and as for me? not that important. just the same issues growing more intense. who knows what's going on? i don't. the world is just not as friendly as it used to be.