my hands smell like seaweed. mmm. please come to rush. please? free food? i would like more people to smile at.

i wonder if people think me the "type" to be in a sorority. i don't think i am, whatever the "type" is. i don't think a single one of my sisters is either. i mean, i'm a huge dork, i haven't gone shopping for myself in four months, i built my own computer, i read sherlock holmes as well as babysitters club when i was in elementary school, and random other weird stuff. oh well. people will believe what they want to believe. i will still be me.

so inarticulate. and my blogs are so short these days. how did this ever happen? i'm usually such a freaking long-winded writer.

i think i'm getting back into my efficient kickass mode. i love it when you look back on your day and think, "wow, i did all that?" accomplishment. nice.

on the other hand, i don't want to say this will last for the whole quarter either. i'm always too scared to hope, too afraid to be completely optimistic. i already know this quarter is going to be crazy. i only hope i'm up for it--that i have the ability to handle all my responsibilities and come out on top (with good grades, please!). i want to actually succeed for once. it feels as if forever has gone by since the last time i've been truly proud of myself.

it finally struck me earlier tonight that rush is going to happen in a matter of days. what if i've forgotten something important? what if no one comes out to rush? what if i screw everything up? why did i want to be rush chair again? i'm scared! hold me!

*ahem* cher, i had significantly more than you that time! jo and deb know. =P try as much as i had that one time and see if you can undo your pants!

that sounded slightly bad. but if you haven't heard the story, you're not gonna! >=P

but hey, ben and sanaz should've at least stayed with you while you drank. it's only polite!

feeling really lame.

oh, not because of manada though. she's my best friend and i'm very happy she came to see me. =)

still feel lame right now though.