we are all complicit. i have an awful suspicion that everything is just a mess. entropy wins in the end anyway. how depressing.

everything is so fleeting. like building a wall but having it knocked over faster on the other end. soon you're left with nothing but crushed brick with which to work.

it's a very aimee mann sort of day. MOMA later today though :)

* * *
"Save Me" -Aimee Mann

you look like a perfect fit
for a girl in need of a tourniquet

but can you save me?
come on and save me
if you could save me
from the ranks of the freaks
who suspect they could never love anyone

'cause i can tell
you know what it's like
the long farewell
of the hunger strike

but can you save me?
come on and save me
if you could save me
from the ranks of the freaks
who suspect they could never love anyone

you struck me down like radium
like peter pan or superman
you will come to save me
c'mon and save me
if you could save me
from the ranks of the freaks
who suspect they could never love anyone
'cept the freaks
who suspect they could never love anyone
but the freaks
who suspect they could never love anyone

c'mon and save me
why don't you save me?
if you could save me
from the ranks of the freaks
who suspect they could never love anyone

except the freaks
who suspect they could never love anyone
except the freaks who could never love anyone

splendid weekend. dancing, home, beach with the dorm, hyatt, the stinking rose...ah, i never fully realized my love for garlic until last night. so delicious, even though popping three altoids didn't cut the stench. haha. and the look on grace's face after the garlic ice cream was priceless.

big fat happy birthday to jenny! paloma and i are very proud of our puchase of the "thioka necklace." =D although it was from bloomie's, we popped our tiffany's cherries together that day in our search too. hah. yeah, believe it or not, neither of us had ever stepped foot into a tiffany's until this weekend. wouldn't have wanted it to happen with anyone else, honey ;)

girly bonding at the hyatt took an interesting turn too. very educational. HAHA. if we had neighbors next door, they must have thought we were crazy. i love all of you =)

i do hate driving and parking in san francisco though. des can attest that i can get unhealthily vocal. whoops. the drive back was interesting...we passed a lot of men in leather and vinyl and hotpants =X some big guy had on those pants that were missing ass material...a la american wedding. craaazy. well, i suppose his ass was nicer than mine. sadness. maybe it was some s&m festival or something.

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just sort of...afloat. barely. i don't think the past can really hurt you in the same way, but it sure does get annoying. life would be so much more comfortable if feelings were logical...or could be controlled by logic at least.

* * *
"Humpty Dumpty" -Aimee Mann

say you were split, you were split in fragments
and none of the pieces would talk to you
wouldn't you want to be who you had been?
well baby, i want that too

so better take the keys and drive forever
staying won't put these futures back together
all the perfect drugs and superheros
wouldn't be enough to bring me up to zero

baby, i bet you've been more than patience
saying it's not a catastrophe
but i'm not the girl you once put your faith in
just someone who looks like me

so better take the keys and drive forever
staying won't put these futures back together
all the perfect drugs and superheros
wouldn't be enough to bring me up to zero

so get out while you can
get out while you can
baby, i'm pouring quicksand
and sinking is all i have planned
so better just go

oh, better take the keys and drive forever
staying won't put these futures back together
all the perfect drugs and superheros
wouldn't be enough to bring me up to zero

all the king's horses and all the king's men
couldn't put baby together again
all the king's horses and all the king's men
couldn't put baby together again