i was walking to the library tonight along this "new" route and it was fairly dark. it was a very nice, rather warm night, i could hear the crickets chirp, the stars were out, [insert more poetic musings here], and suddenly it seemed like there was a lot of cricket-chirping constantly coming from directly in front of me. i slowed down and tried to look at the ground ahead of me as i walked since i was afraid of stepping on a cricket and killing it. (it's so disturbing to take a step, hear a *crunch*, and have the chirping stop...but that's another story.) so i continued this weird, hunched-over, paranoid walk for a couple more yards when i finally realized it wasn't a cricket chirping in front of me--it was a metal button from my jacket jiggling.

then i had a little giggle over myself and went to do work.

i want you, my hunk of gorgonzola. ;-) yes, it was good to hear from you again.

so tired. i wish i knew what i was doing.

* * *
threw you the obvious
and you flew with it on your back
a name in your recollection
down among a million same

difficult not to feel a little bit
disappointed and passed over
when i've looked right through
to see you naked but oblivious
and you don't see me

but i threw you the obvious
just to see if there's more behind
the eyes of a fallen angel
eyes of a tragedy

here i am expecting just a little bit
too much from the wounded
but i see through it all and see you

'cause i threw you the obvious
to see what occurs behind
the eyes of a fallen angel
eyes of a tragedy

oh well
apparently nothing at all

you don't see me
you don't see me at all

~a perfect circle, "3 libras"

from di-di: "the word sarcasm comes from the Greek sarkasmos, or literally, 'flesh-tearing.'"

i did not know that! that is so neat. =) ah, how i love a little flesh-tearing now and then. especially when the targets are worthy. ;-) thanks to my di. i miss her. freaking come visit me!

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mmm...cheese and donuts. *drool* ;-)

in relations between sexes, height is like intelligence. guys tend to look down for girlfriends, and the less the girl has of either, the higher up and manlier he remains. "all the better to protect and dominate you, my dear." besides, taller and smarter girls are scary. yeah, you're intimidated. don't make excuses.

don't you want to be challenged, stimulated, balanced, and complemented by your partner? maybe not. but i do.

what an elusive ideal of a relationship. i'm not by any means a genius, but i'm nowhere near a ditz. plus i'm tall for an asian girl. sheer odds and hundreds of years of culture are against me. good thing i don't mind being single.

yo, jac, you and jo are on crack. =P (wasn't that rhyme whack? *cough*) anyway, as much as i'm flattered, i am so the be-friends-with-her-first-before-liking type of girl, and might qualify for "cute" only on good days (and you don't want to see the bad days ;-). "hot" implies random guys hitting on you. whenever that happens to me, the guy is usually either drunk or high or hitting on anything that looks remotely female.

but i do miss you girls too. =( if i'm hot, y'all are way hotter!

yummy pho for dinner today. i've been craving forever. willow is too cute. =)

kdphi formal was on friday. palace hotel was incredible and nina and shen did a breathtaking job with the decorations and favors...tube tops bling-blinging with KDF in rhinestones! only nina and shen would have come up with that ;-) "one size fits most." teehee. reminds me, need to ask martina for a copy of the slideshow. thanks to my date for coming...well, at least for the part you were not inebriated. =P

i've decided that i do not really like it when guys get drunk. only girls. yes, i have this deep-seated homosexuality and want to take advantage of them in their vulnerable drunken state. kidding. gay is okay, but i'm just quite the straight one. how boring. but of course i'd get with any of my sisters since they're HOT. ;-) (actually that sounded wrong on at least a couple of levels. whoops.)

i had this really involved dream during my nap before dinner. in it, i woke up from my nap, glanced at my alarm clock and saw that it was 8:30 pm, so i thought i had missed dinner yet again since the dining hall closes at 7:30. then i proceeded to ask a very depressed sherman if he had eaten dinner yet--except we were in the zoo, under a bridge in a big pond filled with hippos. to any smarty-pants out there, what the hell does that mean? secretly, i'm worried it just means i'm insane. or maybe i have a thing for hippos.

today is also mother's day. you still have a couple hours to call your mom if you haven't done so already, so GO! my own family doesn't really love me enough to drive me home (which is about 30-45 minutes away) for mother's day. how sad. actually, all my relatives decided to celebrate it next weekend. move a national holiday a week later? no problem. and there was this arts & crafts fair in white plaza today...all the fair food (kettle corn, thai/chinese food, hot dogs, funnel cakes) smelled so GOOD! but i had to refrain since i'm now dirt-poor after buying my mom a present and my sister earrings for her senior ball dress. i ended up eating ritz back in my dorm room. amanda, you'd better wear those freaking earrings! or else!

* * *
i'm out here on the street
there's no one left to meet
the things that were so sweet
no longer move my feet
but i keep trying
i keep on trying

all that i want is stillness of heart