thanks for a lovely dinner, best friend ;-) no, wait a minute, i paid. uh...thanks for the company then. =D

stress level quadrupled afterward...assaulted on all sides once i got back in my room. sorry i couldn't entertain you, amanda =\

I am a Gauntlet Adventurer. I strive to improve my living conditions by hoarding gold, food, and sometimes keys and potions. I love adventure, fighting, and particularly winning - especially when there's a prize at stake. I occasionally get lost inside buildings and can't find the exit. I need food badly. What Video Game Character Are You?

and

I am Kung Fu Master. I like to be in control of myself. I dislike crowds, especially crowds containing people trying to kill me. Even though I always win, I prefer to avoid fights if possible. What Video Game Character Are You?

personally, i think i'm more the guantlet adventurer, but hey, i can deal with being kung fu master too ;-) they're rather amusing...and i don't get lost in large buildings that often! give it a whirl.

is it all a dramatic, pretty lie?

staying home alone on a friday
flat on the floor looking back
on old love
or lack thereof
after all the crushes are faded
and all my wishful thinking was wrong
i'm jaded
i hate it
~from "love song for no one," john mayer

that's exactly how i'm feeling. that, and i'm just...adrift. people need to stop talking about relationships with me because it's slowly and steadily chipping away at my optimism. i'd rather not think about guys at all, but that would make life a bit more boring, no? oh well. i'm just at a loss for words these days.

original baked lay's, how i have missed thee. too bad i'm eating you because i slept through dinner. hm...i think personifying you isn't a good thing. it may indicate that i am insane, or i might just feel guilty once i consume you. oh well. you taste yummy on the way down and have the best crunch.

so i woke up from my nap at 6:45 pm exactly, which is when my dining hall closes. i, being incredibly lazy and groggy, decided to forgo dinner altogether since i figured i wouldn't get there in time. i also did not realize at the time that my clock is set ten minutes fast, so i probably would have been able to make it to dinner. bottom line is that i went back to sleep...finally woke up at 8:00 pm. my sleeping schedule is unhealthy? nah..

at least the nap made me feel better =) i was rather stressed during lunch. man, talking about lunch makes me hungry now. feed me.

oh no, that wasn't all. *moves to wall to bang head*

*bangs head on desk*

sometimes when i think about everything i want to-should-must do, i get so overwhelmed i have to catch my breath. and then i narrow my view again and crawl into myself and feel comfortable again. i suppose i should treat this the same way i change pony's water: place the bag with the old water and fish in the bowl of new water and occasionally dip the sides in so a little water from both sides can gradually flow together, allowing everything to slowly equilibriate. yes, i am dorky enough to create an analogy between myself and a fish.

oh goodness. i realized tonight that my quarter is whack. i don't usually use the word "whack" because i don't use words like whack, but i couldn't think of a word to describe my quarter. so i'm taking 17 units, but us sib coordinators decided to be ambitious this quarter, so we're probably throwing yet another sib dance, along with a couple more sib events this quarter. the kdphi event calendar is crazy packed...we've got the women's conference to plan, retreat, fundraisers, exchanges, yaddayadda. ucaa hasn't disappeared either =( i have some activity to do pretty much every weekend this quarter...how did this happen?? i thought this quarter would just be nerdy-christina-doing-a-lot-of-work quarter, but noooo. wrench thrown in again. must become efficient from now on! i think that would require me smashing my computer. *sigh* we'll see.

okay, going back to work now! yes! need to wake up early tomorrow to talk to the dining services people about putting on that dance =P

oh, on the ride back to stanford from tahoe yesterday, we watched a reallyreally bad movie. it was horrible. just as a warning, don't ever bother to watch the stephen king miniseries, the golden years. i could predict the plot five minutes into the movie, and it was ridiculously long-winded...i fell asleep for like 2 hours and when i woke up, i could still follow the storyline! incredibly bad acting (ooh, another over-the-top mad scientist with big hair!)...the list goes on. yeah. just don't watch it. i don't know why i'm blogging about it, but don't. =)

back from ucaa ski trip, i am. sweet cabin, many (asian) people, a ton of food, sleep, and lots of alcohol! haha...no, do not worry. i did not get drunk and do stupid shit. it was a very fun, chill weekend...bonded with some cool people--"sizzling nugget of passion!" hahaha =) played massive amounts of pool and big two (revolution!), and i decided that i like smirnoff ice a lot-- even though it's supposedly the "girliest" drink possible. well screw you =P hehe. all in all, i'm very glad it turned out well! hm...except for the slight couple hundred dollars of debt thing. we'll see what i can work out with the budget *pushes up sleeves*. and...now i'm screwed. no work was done up in tahoe, of course. and i had a meeting tonight...and three meetings tomorrow night. the part of me that loves sleep is in mourning.

"men are like parking spaces--all the good ones are taken and all the rest are handicapped." this is oh-so-true, especially at stanford. ah well, i've got bigger fish to fry, more things to do, etc. and you know how people say males are so much more immature than females? i think i would agree with this statement to some degree. i'm not going to generalize and say that all guys my age are immature, but i can definitely see how some would be. a lot of guys come into college with the idea that their college years are their playtime, meaning it's their time to fool around and have fun and not tie themselves down with a girlfriend or something. i can totally understand that, but many girls enter college expecting to meet their "forever" man and get married. this obviously creates a conflict of interest, no? so it is understandable why some would say females are more mature than males because the guys are still playing while the girls want a steady relationship. i say give it time. we're young yet! no need to rush things =) eventually those guys will grow up and want a steady relationship and things will work out. and there are guys my age who want steady relationships and are great people...many of them just seem to be taken. "or handicapped" =D

ooh! i randomly ran into stan lin tonight on the way back from my meeting...haven't seen him in forever =) and i dropped in on oliver and julian since they were on the way. did you know there's an energy drink being marketed right now called "rockstar"? it's slogan: "party like a rock star." hahaha...this thing is hilarious. it supposedly contains a "liver healing herb" called milk thistle or some crap, but the fine print admits that although "scientific evidence" supports this, the fda has not approved it yet. yummy! haha. i'm amused. back to work now =)

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"and we find at the end of a perfect day, the soul of a friend we've made."
~carrie jacobs bond